Earth Tides

New Moon to Lunar Lammas, Healing the Feminine in 2017

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Ahhhh, friends.

What a year, no?  Our first moon cycle in 2017 inaugurated a man as the leader of our metaphoric house who bragged about the exploitation and objectification of the female body.  Our values supported this.

The normalization of exploitation in this house is unacceptable.

The female body.  The female body.  The female body.

How is your house?  How are you tending your one true sacred space?

At home–here on earth, our first and most taken for granted body–what’s it been like for you?  What level of your own shame stories, meaning your internal narratives about your worth, about being or not being good enough, about your rights, have you become more aware of this year?

How mindful of the stress you are carrying, its physicality, are you?  The stories that your body is carrying about you and your experience?

How well have you been at declaring your own right to your own path of unique heart, spirit, soul?

From an earth-based perspective, the growing season of the year relies as much on what has decomposed being turned under, transforming to nutrients, as it does on the potentiality of wild starry fruits blossoming from a single seed.  It is an endless continuum of stages and cycles, from dying and dark to birthing, blooming, fruiting, and harvesting, too.

When the moon is dark she is between the earth and the sun, and her other half sends the light of the sun back at itself.  We here on earth fall still in her darkness, a holding, receptive gravity.

The moon holds all, receptive and active.

When she is active or full she is at the height of light, actually reflecting the light of the sun back on us here on earth.

Between these two polarities are the fluidity of transitions of dark and light.  Metaphoric, yes.  And also cyclic and specific.  Both applications, and all their subtleties, are necessary.  Again, the feminine holds all.

From a menstrual perspective, we track our personal moons.  Chances are our personal moon doesn’t follow the actual moon.  So we use the moon’s phases as a metaphor to understand both the biology and psychology of the feminine psyche.

The new moon as metaphor is day one, or when we first bleed. When we first bleed, we are dying and birthing at once, as now we re-engage the solar or ovulatory, fertile aspect of our selves.  As the days of our cycle accumulate, we track where we are.  We learn to re-embody the fluidity of the inter-lobal functioning of the female body, for again, the feminine holds all.  For example, at stage four, the Gibbous moon, which can be anywhere from about day 7 through day 17 depending on your unique, beautiful and powerful body, we undergo an abrupt rise in the neuropeptides FSH (follicle-stimulating hormone) and LH (luteinizing hormone). There is a rise in estrogen level and left hemisphere brain activity and simultaneous testosterone and right hemisphere activity and increase in libido. Read Dr. Christiane Northrup’s Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom to learn more!  

Our discharge is known at this time as E-type mucus, which is when small tubules are present in our discharge that hold sperm!  This is us in our fertile, almost full cycle. At stage 5, our metaphoric full moon, G-type mucus immediately follows the release of our ovum, and this sort of mucus actually keeps us from getting pregnant.  Like the moon at her peak active phase when she’s full, our bodies too lean from our full momentum back into ourselves.  And so at peak fertility we start again towards the reflective, recycling, dark and dying phases.

The growing season on earth follows these 8 stages, too!

Lammas, again using the metaphor of the phases of the moon, can be understood as stage 6, the Disseminating Moon.  Like for the year!  Disseminating moon, according to Demetra George’s Mysteries of the Dark Moon is the “first stirring of dark,” when the seed has become what it was meant and the “life impulse must fulfill, distribute energy and disseminate and share the value of the meaning.”  From a menstrual perspective, it is “the luteal phase” when “we turn more inward, preparing to develop or give birth from something deep within ourselves.” (Northrup, 2010)

Disseminating moon is the fruiting phase, or harvest.  Whether an ovum has been fertilized, or it was the fertility of a new idea that peaked, maybe a transformed inner narrative, or however it was that you lived out this growing cycle psychologically, biologically, spiritually and creatively, the disseminating moon phase from a menstrual perspective is the fruiting time, our first harvest.  After peak fertility phase.

And so it is we celebrate Lammas, the First Harvest of the earth’s natural growing year.  People who tend these concepts, embodying them and staying close to nature, outside with feet grounded upon her and skin and blood and biology and body in one rhythmic inhalation exhalation of all that is, recognize this as connected to a variety of different anthropological rites.  Traditions the world over acknowledge with celebration the bounty of fruit on the vine at summer’s height.

From a lunar perspective, which for me is the feminine-embodied perspective, we celebrate Lunar Lammas when the moon is in the sun sign of Leo and full.

So, ya with me?  We learn to track the phases of the moon, and then to metaphorically apply these phases.  They can inform the dark and light aspects of our biology, and of the seasons of the year.  We too learn to hold all, to think quantum or multi-dimensionally, to hold our still point within, and All At Once at once!

Lunar Lammas is the full moon on Monday, August 7, this year.  Already the sun-made shadows of heaping breathy green tree walls here are muddled, that certain angle of soupy dark I so love.

Mind what this moon cycle brings.  It is your harvest.  What will you reap?  Mind what stories live, what experiences happen.  Mind your light and your dark.  Mind your experiences this month from a reflective viewpoint that holds the continuum of the year, all those spirals of moon around the far side of the earth and back to between the earth and sun, again and again.

What is illuminated under the active light of her reflecting back the height of the summer sun?  For that is what happens on Lunar Lammas.

Unplug from your computer or other e-devices.  Leave your phone in the car and get outside.  Restore your natural circadian rhythm from all that electronic interference.

Give yourself back to yourself.  Back to your body.  Back to the earth.  The natural perfect spheres of rhythm. Happy first harvest season friends~!!

To understand more, make some time and visit my Facebook page.  We will spend this month learning more about the moon’s 8 phases.

 

Full Moon and Healing The Story of Culture

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This full moon presents us with a reality highlight.  A shining on who we are in our most present, day to day, practical ways.

Who we are is how we Be.

Discernment can be tough when it comes to understanding what I mean.  Societal arousal is high.  The open, gaping wound of fear-driven, hate-talk projections can be so consuming We all easily forget that we co-create our experience, we are not victims, we are powerful not powerless, imagination is infinite and love is pure and transformational, we are responsible, we can begin within.

Nature teaches.  What we sow we reap, and this is what begin within means.

Begin within.  What stories do you tell yourself?  Literally, what does your self-talk look like?

Do you listen to your inner guidance?  Do you trust yourself?

Begin again.  Do you take time to feed yourself instead of over-caffenate? Do you constantly expose yourself to an endless steam of social media and click bait content, chemically co-creating your own addiction to hyper-arroused cortisol, your stress hormone?  Do you fall to sleep with your head wired to electronics?  Is it how you wake?

This also is food, what your brain, heart, and soul absorb.

Begin again.  How are your relations?  One basic tool I practice is that if my relationships with others are off it usually means I am not being accountable to my own relationship to my self.  What I don’t confront within myself I will act out in my relations.  This is called projection.

Baby steps.  Be gentle with self-truth.

How are you feeling and what do you need to be accountable to?  Meaning how do I feel, in my body, right now? What do I need?

Gentle, gentle.  Begin again:

People who come from environments where displacing their needs was the norm, like those who experienced normalized dangers like violence or poverty, who had an abuser in the home, who had untreated substance abuse in the home, were taught it wasn’t safe.  They unconsciously, through the normalization of this is not safe, learn that it is unacceptable to feel because to survive meant silencing or repeatedly ignoring the normal metabolic, stress-relieving processes of feeling.  Folks like this may struggle with the concepts in this post.

That silencing, that self-shaming, becomes a part of your chemical program.  It creates the perceptions you have of safety and the world around you. If these normalized traumas exist in the home, we call it systemic because it is of the family system.  If it exists in the community, we call it cultural.  There is almost always a relationship between one and the other.

What we don’t work out, we act out.

Woman as sexualized object is so normalized that we are accused of sexualizing our selves if we dress in ways that flatter our body.  Consider how normalized this dangerous ideal is of shaming the female body.  

This is crazy.  Name it. Feel it.  Break down patterns inside yourself that support shame.  Breakdown paves the way for breakthrough.

Woman as caretaker is so normalized that mothers and wives often believe they must carry the entire emotional reality of their children and husband/partner.  Consider how dangerous this is to shaming your own rights to your own needs, and how dangerous it is to the system because it teaches everyone that they don’t have to be accountable to their own.

This is crazy.  Name it.  Feel it.  Breakdown paves the way for breakthrough.

Often coming into real health for folks can first look and feel crazy!  Because when an individual starts to see that she was taught to participate in the normalization of negating her own needs in order to survive it can feel like she is going crazy. Breaking denial deregulates a persons entire reality.

Break down paves the way for breakthrough.

Healing is a process, health is a process.  Transformation happens.  Begin within.

Begin within.  Begin now.  What stories do you tell yourself about your ability, your right to meet your own needs?  About what you need and what would happen if you gave yourself the self-care you need?

This moon highlights the peak growing season of spring. Metabolic storages of sunshine getting ready to transform to fruit and bounty!  Begin again.  Tolerance and love can only be practiced when we are in the habit of tending it inside ourselves. This is an active energy moon, manifesting! Tolerate your truth without judgement.  Tolerate your own shame, your own feelings, any self-shaming stories or ways within you with the compassion you would give a best friend.  This moon WILL highlight (GROW)  whatever your energy level is…which is connected to your stress…which is connected to your self-stories and relationships…which is connected to how you feed your own needs.

Begin within: What are you exposing yourself to?  How can you reframe what you are feeling, what you tell yourself, to understand it as your own needs crying out to be met?

What is seen beneath this moon the elders used to say was prophetic!  This ain’t metaphysics hahaha!  Simply put, we are complicit: we are accountable to how free we keep the infinite source of our heart, our mind, our soul.  We are accountable to our choices and how they interconnect us in relationships.  Begin within, what do you sow?  How consciously, gratefully, joyously do you choose to take this one chance we get to live?  This moon is a spotlight into that.

It will grow us toward the peak of the light season–summer’s start.  This moon tide will hold us to ourselves, full moons bring the tension of more light, literally the sunlight reflected back at us in the middle of the night sky… Sunlight that increases until it pitches to its height at the Solstice, and after that–harvest or growth will be a momentum that we are already in the middle of.

So Now is a time to tend.  Now is the time.  Always.  Right now.  It’s all we have.

Begin again. Be gentle.  If you want to change the world, start within yourself.  Change happens within with the soft steadiness of love.

Happy Full moon, friends xo

 

 

Divine Love & Healing Shame on Lunar Beltane

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Beltane, if celebrated on the lunar-led earth path of the medicine wheel, is tonight.

Ancestors used to celebrate Beltane as the traditional start of summer.

Think fire, passion!!  May Day, when maidens danced the Maypoles and the lusty earth was potent with the growing BLOSSOMS that at spring were birthed!  When certainly some of those ancestors made love to celebrate the union of romance and marriage, as the union of sun and earth that produced the fertility of crops every year.

What a special time to think of LOVE.

Agape LOVE.  Unconditionally altruistic, life giving, accepting. Transformative. Eros love, the craving for union, the longing for self and other as One.  DIVINE LOVE.

I start tending my “dark” side at Halloween.  On the medicine wheel, I walk an embodied daily understanding of as within, so without, and vice versa.  For me, this is the truest way to be in sacred relations to all of life.

What this means is that when the days darken, I tend the season of the dark.  I take it as reality that from Fall Equinox onward, and especially when we reach November and the time changes, this is a time when I am closest to my own interior darkness.

Recall (from Wild Women Wisdom, Ovulation and the Active Imagination, Nov 13, 2014) that the psyche projects its earliest understanding of dualistic thinking.  Dualism is self and other.  Think as well of opposites, mom and dad, good and bad, right and wrong becomes internalized as the right worldview.  Good behavior is behavior that gets positive feedback so all else is bad behavior.  This becomes an unconscious way we relate to the world!

Dualism is the nature of consciousness.  Carl Jung deepened our modern understanding of this by helping us realize that what we are conscious of, our thoughts and feelings that we can see or name, has a compensatory opposite energy too that we can’t or don’t. He called this our shadow.

Basically, what we associate with as bad we will stuff into our shadow, where it dominates the unconscious.  In this way, what we don’t work out will get acted out.  Or as Jung said, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”

Tonight, and in general what is peaking or being brought to the light right now, is related to your conscious or unconscious experiences from late October onward.

One of the reasons (from Wild Women Wisdom, Wildness on the Full Moon Tide, Jan 5, 2015) women repress their strength or natural association with the realm of the feminine godhead (and therefor with the realm of the collective unconscious) is because we in Western society esteem a male God.  Meaning the feminine has been relegated to the shadow.

The feminine, however, was at one time divined among many other aspects through menstrual mysteries.

During the 14th and 15th centuries 9 million women burnt at the stake because of a document known as the malleus maleficarum which associated menstrual mysteries with being a witch (see Shuttle and Redgrove’s (2005) The Wise Wound for more info.)

Inherent feminine wisdom, or the biological fact that we are cyclical and rhythmic just as the moon and the sun, the seasons and the tides, had to be buried deep within the collective psyche.  It was demonized or repressed, which means shamed to the extent that rhythmic knowledge of one’s own psyche either as a female, or in regards to anima or feminine instincts, became associated with Satanism!

Lets consider more closely the archetypal mind of the Goddess, or the feminine divine, as a counterpart to the more known and illumined God.  The Goddess oversees the realm of dark, night, intuition, death and rebirth (because the female rules the women’s mysteries, of which birth is one) receptivity, and on a more temporal or practical level, emotions, though that is equally an embodied male or animus or egoic part of the process as well (see Ann Ulanov’s interpretation for more on this.)

Bessel van der Kolk is a doctor who coined the term developmental or complex trauma.  This is when the nervous system experiences normalized, environmental traumas like untreated substance abuse in the family, domestic violence, or poverty, among other things.

I would like to suggest that the wound of the feminine, or the collective suppressing of the power of the feminine, is an untreated complex trauma in society at large.

In my own experience, healing it means healing the wound of, in Erich Neumann’s words, the patriarchal uroboros in the feminine psyche.

Uroboros is the snake eating its own tail.  Think about it.  If the feminine’s strength is the darkness, and the darkness is also what’s been demonized both through the repression of feminine instinct as well as as the demonization of dark as wrong or bad, well then.  That’s kind of a problem that, like the uroboros, is self-perpetuating.

This Beltane my dear friends, WRITE ON YOUR HEART A COMMITMENT TO YOURSELF TO LOVE YOURSELF WHOLE AGAIN: Shame shames shame.  The shame cycle is part of the nebulous core of almost all complex traumas.  SHAME SHAMES SHAME. This is the patriarchal uroboros.

Begin within.  Healing is about awareness, keeping right relations within by starting to love yourself by being with exactly how you are feeling right now.  Healing is about softening, utilizing the Wise self to be with, to accept what is right now.  To accept unconditionally gives us the choice to Love.  To serve and to create union with the shadowed aspects that the Full moon illumines.

At Beltane, let us align our Wise selves with the sacred heart of Divine Love inside of each of us, and transform shame.  Healing is not so much an action plan as a way in which we learn to unconditionally accept and relate to our self.

This be my prayer for us all!

 

 

Mama Wound: The VICTIM. Under Spring Gibbous Moon

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“LOVE OR FEAR? You have to love yourself.  You have to feel that you deserve to be happy and that you deserve to live and you deserve to love. Because two emotions can’t exist at the same time…Emotions are the tone of your whole BodyMind.”  Dr. Candace Pert

The human MindBody is QUANTUM.  Repeat that a million times while smiling and chanting YUM over and over in the harmony of Om, and educate yourself about it until you understand what I mean.

The moon navigates us gravitationally.  Up down up down.  Repeat this, too.

The western wound of the Feminine is a metaphoric understanding that demonizes the role of emotions–the flow of nuropeptides-– and therefor creates an adverse affect, or literally the back-up of emotions in our body.  So I will name this wound metaphorically the Role of the Victim.

What areas in your life do you self-vicitimize?  Dig on it, think on it.  I’ll say it again: The wound of the Feminine translates in the body as the wound of not being allowed to feel.  VICTIM.

We experience Shame for feelings. We Shame Our Feelings. Which is a spiral, the Shame Cycle.   I shame how I feel so that chemically, when I feel, I feel shame. DANG!  It keeps the Victim in place.

And guess what, you can get addicted to that bad-feeling fear-based Shame Cycle!

Cognitive behavior therapy is an inherent behavioral science that underlies all EBT (evidence based treatment) models for therapy, and is elsewhere found in the 12-steps.  From a Cog B perspective, we might say VICTIM is a Core Belief.  Maybe The Core Belief?  In any case, most of us know what it’s like to walk around with repressed fear at our core, for sure.

Victim.  I deserve or belong in pain.  I am worth Nothing.

How do you relate to being a Victim in your own life?  What about Martyr?? There’s a real connection here to codependency in relationships, too.

We disown our own needs all the time because we pathologize everything haha because of that whole addicted to feeling bad thing, and pathologizing keeps that secured!

Why do we deny our needs?

We receive a million stories a day that a) We can’t change the way things are (because we’re Victims) and also B)Feeling anything but positive is wrong.  Haha so then we depress our feelings.  Because it’s wrong to feel bad.  And so then what do we do?  Try to medicate them!  AND YOUR BRIAN CHANGES EVERY TIME YOU CHRONICALLY MEDICATE FEELINGS! Learn about the science of addictions!  The science of the BodyMind! LORD! Learning to name feelings and feeling them.  Check your self.  For real.  What ways do you Victimize your self?  Cuz you believe it’s easier than feeling how you feel, and owning what you need?

It’s worth a look.

On the somatic level this impacts your immune system.  To depress your feelings and other basic (think Maslow) physiological needs.  And then shows up in your hormones. Which have to do biologically with how you process stress and also, is impacted by your diet and other genetic and environmental factors including being fed and getting enough sleep.  This wiring gets passed on to your kids!  And is ultimately, again, about whether or not those basic needs are met, and then if we are able to process stress and deal with our emotions day to day.

SUCH MIRACLES we each are, if we get mindful about our miraculous capacities!  Literally.  Mindfulness is the Healer Within.  Such miracles we are even if we’re not mindful of it!  Either way 🙂

This conversation is different from chemical imbalances that people suffer with, requiring medication in order to function.  That’s very real.  But it’s also related, because in the same conversation we could look at how many of those peoples are a composite of at least a generation of unprocessed complex trauma (basic needs not met, power dynamics that create neglect or abuse in the family, community or home) and they end up dealing with said familial or societal imbalance through substance use and abuse, which takes us back to the neuropeptides of emotions again, and the soft wiring of DNA Feels, and unmet needs.

In any case.  Own your needs by getting real with your self about what is really real in your life, right now.

And at least open your mind with me when I suggest that there is Collective Subconsciousness to Patterns.  That show up, against the very real cycles of practical things like Nature’s Growing Season.  I mean.  You’re living and growing, right?  I sure hope so.

The Wound Of The Feminine is in us ALL.  It begins within.  That’s all.

 

April. First quarter moon of Spring.

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Welcome APRIL! At the first quarter moon of Spring.

“Eostremonap is “Eostre’s Month,” the time to celebrate the feast of the goddess Eostre. Easter is the English name of the Germanic goddess Ostara. Her feast coincidentally took place near the Christians’ Paschal feast, and her name was retained for th leather in both Modern English (Easter) and German (Ostern). Eostre is a goddess of spring and the dawn–a goddess of new beginnings. Her name is related to “east” where the sun rises.” -Alaric Albertsston

The first quarter moon means we have increased the amount of sunlight reflecting to us in the middle of the night via the face of La Luna by a half. The sun is the outward expression of growth and light, and this is our first moon cycle of the Spring, of Dawn, Birth, or East quadrant on the medicine wheel of the year. It is now, this week especially, that the momentum of the season’s shift finally starts to feel like it has taken hold.

This is the time of the tender primacy of new growth. Of fresh soil and wee buds bursting forth on the branch. This is nature’s natural aligning energy.

Stay close to yourself: Spring or Birthing season is connected directly to renewal from death, allow your heart to draw light from the teachings of traditional Easter and Christ. Birth does not happen in a moment. Laboring is a process.

Allow your process.

Allow. Add some exercise to your daily routine to make room in the physical body for the upcoming growing season of the soul.

Allow. Check in with your sleep cycle. I know mine has been a MESS since daylight savings. Do you need to make some changes? I pulled an almost all-nighter Saturday so I could turn in last night at 8. It worked! I got 9 straight hours for the first time since the time change.

What’s your caffeine intake look like? Are you eating well?

The spring and the time change are adjustments to your personal biorhythm, called the Circadian cycle.

Allow. Allow what is.

This station of the moon’s cycle is a good one for becoming mindful of what is working in your day to day. It is EXCELLENT for initiating small, daily behavior change.

Be well!! Be good to you!! As always, begin within~April

New Moon of Spring :)

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The dark is the power of the feminine, as death is the power of life.

The dark moon, before she peaks. This is the feminine in her essence. Without the light of the sun, which is the light we see nocturnally reflected at us via La Luna, she is who she is. NO MASKS. Nothing but herself to feel, to witness, to be with, to see.

Take heart dear friends, tonight’s New Moon will move us finally into a real initiatory feeling of light and movement. Some of this tension–WHICH lS THE TENSION OF BIRTH, WHICH IS THE MEDICINE OF SPRING—birth comes not easy, now! Do not quit!! will be surpassed by the new life bubbling within.

But you must claim it. You must set out for it, you must take up, on your behalf, your own fight.

For your light. Your heart. Your soul. Your LIFE.

Trust the flow. Take quiet time right now, dark moon is the most powerful time to get still, to go within.

Be gentle with what is, with what you see or feel there.

Love. IS.

This be my prayer~~

Happy new moon friends!

Spring Equinox, on a Last Quarter Moon

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Spring Equinox is today!!

It is the Entryway into Season of Light.

Entryway a word I use specifically, meaning Threshold Time, time of powerful pause, when two states exist side by side.
At once we hold the Season of Dark’s end, right next to our Sacred entry to Spring.

The winter is our dark night, for all of us!

The Season of the Dark Night of the Collective. It is North on the Medicine wheel, aligned with the wisdom of death, dying, stillness, darkness, quiet, loss, letting go, grief and grieving, potentiality in its raw, unformed aspect. It is all of the space necessary to hold the birth of new life that comes with spring.

This weekend we are at the Crossroads, seeing backwards over winter, and forwards into the coming spring. Spring rotates us eastward, it is air which in March on the eastern seaboard brings me into my experience of fierce winds and change, and too lands me in the miracle of breath, of the knowingness of peace that comes when I begin within, with the simple, profound gratitude for that mystery which breathes me. It is birth, intellect, insight, seeds, innocence, foolishness, sweet~ It reminds us intuitively that with rebirth comes another season of light and fun, another season of the Sun.

We are at a Dual Threshold, for this Monday too, the cross-quarters of the Medicine Wheel intersect.

This happens because the Moon is also half light, half dark. She walks backwards towards her dark, while the Sun marches us forward into the Season of Light. walks us as Backwards and Forwards at once every so often, and from its tense momentum comes Birth. This is always medicine of the Threshold, which we call not just Entryway but Initiation.

As well, it is the Good Medicine of Spring. Birth. East. Dawn.

Free Association Meditation:
Make two lists. One titled Light or Birth. One titled Dark or Death. Remembering the Dual nature of Dark, to die and at once, to hold UnSeen the potentializing energy of what still shall be.

What words or phrases come out naturally under each title? What words or phrases, dreams or thoughts, feelings, instincts inform each title?

Hold Space for Each.

Is there a mantra that holds both, that honors the Sacred Continuum of how the two are connected? A sacred way which weaves more than one idea across the spectrum of letting go and coming to be? Which holds the true inner-outter diversity of Life? A sentence that claims what you want, see, or need? Create one or two.

Choose the language that best suits how you want or need to Relate to it. This is an Intention.

Tend your intentions as we move through the Season of Growth this year.

Remember, right relations begin within~With Wisdom, Comes Responsibility. Your own medicine is what is alive in your own life, a day at a time.
Be gentle, be good to you. When the light comes on, the dark dispels.
Love is all there is~

Don’t Let Them Tame You~

Lunar Imbolc

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Lunar Imbolc comes early this year, overnight!

It is the New Moon in Aquarius, and is a tide you began to feel when the moon entered her last quarter or wane towards the dark moon, which happened Tuesday.

This is the first seed or sap rising moon, when the subtle momentum of life force starts to stir you awake with true vision for your year!

I’ll say that again–now that the holidays whir is behind us, this is the moon tide that brings VISION for the year to come!!!

For fun, if you journal or record anywhere, look back in August at the full moon–these are cross quarters so these two moons have a relationship continuum.

Prepare, though. This moon cycle will feel a little slow, so rest A Lot! It is mercury retrograde, too. Starts this week.

Making it best to lean in to winter, use her to your advantage! Slow down and just use the cosmic line-up to witness. Witness within, witness your thoughts, beliefs, stories that need transforming. This is the tide! Merc Retros are soul reviews, and with the early Imbolc tide this year, this retro gives us a great chance to clean up whatever still needs attention from basically Halloween onward~

Happy Lunar Imbolc. Stay WILD.

New Moon: Imbolc-tide on the earth path & in Laguna Canyon!

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In every place I’ve ever lived I’ve made habit of going out walking.  The funniest walk habit that just pops to mind is in Easton and wild crafting out of people’s manicured or otherwise front lawns.  I got sick I guess from chemicals once.  Here in Laguna Canyon if I go out walking that can mean all through out the nooks and crannies of Hobbit Lane or it can mean an artfest or it can mean an entire little village next to the sea or it can mean to the sea, and even up to the heart of town where my laundry gets done and coffee is roasted.  All this on foot.

It also can mean in to the canyon and its million different wild paths…which is where the instinct led me today.  First, all thanks under this sacred tide for the fact that the life I wanted to lead, led by my own tides, has come to be.  Last year’s intention of commitment and Nature and Hearth and Poet-heart gnosis magic.

I was so into my street bc really, crevices of fairy ribbons and green.  All over the place.  Like I got home and later before I sat to write this but after the hike about which I write, a little black cat even w the lime green eyes came and stared in my screen.  I have seen her once before and that was when she crossed my path last night 🙂

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But what I came here to write about is the Imbolc Tide and how that found me, or led me? to the canyon today. Meaning to me that since the moon got into her last quarter wane you can feel the Imbolc archetype in it–in the wild outside. Sap Rise.  Nature of things.

It said, like almost with words if words were capable of feeling in your body, which I guess yea they are–how some words like names or places give you a feeling.  The words like fresh air on my skin were the canyon, how would it be to be in the canyon today?  And also at once I could see-feel the brown and rain-green against the vibrating blue.

So out I went through Hobbitt Lane and then next was wild crafting in the canyon, mostly just checking in with the tender primacy of the new shoots, gathering their smells and basic habitats–growing companions etcetera.  And so off I went on one unmarked path, one of the first you hit on the trail at the bottom of my street, and before I knew it i was led to the clearing green, where I have been before bc here it looks out on the sea.  But this time there was a labrythn there!  And much as it could’ve been there when last I was here, I certainly didn’t see.

And I threw off my bag and ran to the labyrinth and gave out my intention sure as it’s been for this year all along.  And round I walked and it was so immediate, how essential, and real.  How I knew I was embodying the Imbolc tide, bc this is the Way w Earth Wisdom.  To let her imbibe, to not just meditative tend but to be out and fee her.  I don’t know who put this sacred spiral off the beaten path.  But all thanks bc that was amazing.

I reached the center and constructed my own little offering.  I knew with clarity what it said by the center, and what I had melted with in response by the time I reached the end.  This is good medicine, a good posturing on the year:  highest harmony and love. OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA I talked for a long time then to a dear wise sister friend.   Only very few would be allowed into Nature magic like that.  It made me remember Spence, the surfer I met on the beach at sunset last year closer to traditional Imbolc.  I took him hiking in to the canyon at dusk and showed him to open his sight and we were super dropped in and came eye to eye with coyote in the twilight.

And so, this is lunar Imbolc tide, from tonight until the New Moon of Monday night in to Tuesday.  She will move you if merely say yes to the most minor wild whisperings in your soul.  Traditional Imbolc is Feb 1, this is Christian’s Brigid’s Day or the Feast of this Goddess/Saint.  Goddess of first light, instinct, vision of pre-dawn insight, first seed.  Poeticly charged and inspired.  My patroness.  This magic will therefor last until the full moon of Feb 3.

SO RAD to be out there and let the harmony of earth-wild tide move me.  I tended my inner tides in the labyrinth and saw very clearly some of the precious gold seeds ready to grow with the season of the sun. I made offerings about the land and took some newest shoots of black sage.  It’s exciting, I have a graduation coming up and then…so much room for fun 🙂

All love, happy tides!  Begin within, then go on and get out there!

Wildness on the Full Moon Tide

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The last thing there is with ease is craziness in this world.

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Here in the house of my grandparents where only my mom and dad now live it is dark, far darker than any other place I’ve ever been.   That includes both sets of coastal mountain regions where I’ve been lucky enough to stay, over on the upper half of the west coast.  Winter comes darker here in this pine-shrouded place mere miles from Ma Atlantic, in a way that’s way darker than anywhere else in my world. It is, this trip, a darkness of peace. So too this wild shining full moon:  this bolt of truth-light lit up around the seeds that fell under winter-solstice’s new moon.

Wild-eyed, moony vision, passions elemental in precision, lifeforce stirrings in pine-wind and starlight.  Crazyyy. I used to call such potency “Mad-Poet Vision”. Nods to the tribe who hold the line of such teachings: my name or words for this derive from Allen Ginsburg’s studies of poet-ecologist Gary Snyder, who brought the teachings back from the monks in Japan.   It is, condensed, what Ginsburg taught eventually as First Thought, Best Thought.

To infiltrate the yak yak of the linear, egoic (or “male” animus mind), we allow the wild stirrings, the deeper impressionistic vibes that are psyche’s messengers to have their way.

We have been programmed, in part from societal conditioning, to believe these are two different energies and that the one that is personally predominant is such according to your gender.  In truth they are a continuum of single energy manifested as receptive or active depending on your state of consciousness.  Every man is intuitive and receptive and every woman is thought-driven and purposeful, or so do we each have these capacities.

One of the reasons women repress their strength or natural association with the realm of the feminine godhead (and therefor with the realm of the collective unconscious) is because we in Western society esteem a male God.  The feminine, however, was at one time divined among many other aspects through menstrual mysteries.  During the 14th and 15th centuries 9 million women burnt at the stake because of a document known as the malleus malefic arum which associated menstrual mysteries with being a witch. (see Shuttle and Redgrove’s (2005) The Wise Wound for more info.) Thus inherent feminine wisdom had to be buried deep within the collective psyche, so that it is demonized or repressed and therefor shamed to the extent that rhythmic knowledge of one’s own psyche either as a female, or in regards to anima or feminine instincts, became associated with Satanism!

Diane diPrima, the female contemporary of the above fellows, brought her esoteria more home to her own experience.  Also entering the door via studies of Eastern cosmology, diPrima discovered the archetypal mind of the Godess, or the feminine divine. To work more closely with this metaphor, as a counterpart to the more known and illumined God, the Goddess oversees the realm of dark, night, intuition, death and rebirth (because the female rules the women’s mysteries, of which birth is one) receptivity, and on a more temporal or practical level, emotions, though that is equally an embodied male or animus or egoic part of the process as well (see Ann Ulanov’s interpretation for more on this.)

It makes sense that 50’s gnosis would seek Eastern tradition for enlightenment, in that it was an overt response to the subversive tactics of the US Government during the McCarthy era, a time which saw people like Ginsburg and Leroi Jones (who became later known as Amiri Baraka) on trial for obscenity in their poetry.  To quote a line of diPrima’s Rant, THE ONLY WAR THAT MATTERS IS THE WAR AGAINST THE IMAGINATION/ALL OTHER WARS ARE SUBSUMED IN IT (sic). To keep a people anesthetized on the illusion of Descartes self-vs other (embodied hate projected outwards) is the best way to keep them from opening the door to explore that our complexes begin, and can be transformed, from within.  Eastern tradition introduced these 50’s rebel poets to the concept of non-dualism.

So it is that first thought, best thought was born.  Jack Kerouac actually took this concept and re-visioned what the modern novel could be–allowing for a trance-like, ecstatic spiral stream of consciousness to penetrate the tops layers of personality into the more free-associative realms of the deeper psyche.  This is first thought, best thought:  to follow the flow of the psyche in image, sensation, words, sounds, and to not resist what it arrives with or where it leads.  To especially have no plan, but, as in the case of the writer, to be a channel for and follow the words.  It is, throughout this act, how the artist speaks for the society by wheeling deeper and deeper into the collective unconsciousness and bringing out more and more to the host of light, or animus/ego-consciousness.

I learned almost all of this information in books, long before I went to an Institution to study it.  In fact, I had to skip school this past weekend out of reverence for the holy Poetry first thought best thought mad-eyed seeing in the dark vision.  Despite my school’s worldly attempt to foster an environment that esteems Hillman’s non-literalization of the image, the final point is if you study this stuff too much instead of trying to live it–to actively dance the day with the doors of the psyche open and free–you deaden the archetypal mind.  You Kill the Soul.

So it is, this moon brings me to mind of the celebration of the Tribe of the Wild-Eyed.  Those of us out there being it.  Surrendering, again and again, all ideas in favor of the WILD, in favor of the psyche, the inner Nature, the Soul. May the outward full moon light, symbol of consciousness and focus, of male-orientation (the full moon reflects the light of the sun!) which shine-throttled through your personal dark all weekend long and likely stirred the wildinnereyes! Guide you inward and through doing so, help you re-relate.  As always my prayers are that you re-relate in gentleness and love.  May this moon light be ecstatic vision, may your trust in it be as strong as my reverent love for it.  May it guide you ever home.

If there’s anything to learn from diPrima and her tribe, it is that the Wild Eyed Vision, the embodiment of psyche and soul, the interchanging dance of male/female within, can happen no matter who you are.

But let it happen.  That’s the work.  It takes practice to return.  Again, again, again.

May we have no fear of the dark, and not hide the crazy that comes with it, that we’ve all been taught to fear~

xo